Looking for a new land

Everyone wants to go to a new land. Everyone.
There has to be more than the hoedrum of life.
Love becomes stale, hearts become hard,
The choice: to have a heart like a child, or weeds of life worries,& of heart aches.
and a friends tell friends they are repenting from backsliding,
because some how busieness cammofolged a loss of first love
and the crazy actions that come with first love kind of logic.
and you and i are left with our hearts in our hands crying out
for softness to replace bitterness,
for faith logic to replace wordly wisdom,
& for love to replace habit & systemmatic expectations.

Then Out of the blue, proverbs becomes, not a book of external expectations,but of inner realities that express themselves outwardly.
The Book of Daniel, though filled with confussing escatology, Turns up to have hidden jems, that are beautiful and insighful, enough to make you stop, because you have to read it again,
and this time, maybe you will read them out loud.

And in the midst of it all an idea comes, to take someone else to a new land.
and so with my heart in my hands, and more excitement than i have had in a while, i go on an excurssion, to turn into beauty that which has become mundain.
Candle holders-sister in law has those, Candles & Mirrors & Music-me, silk from Cambodia-Nextdoor neighbor, New dress for less than $15-walmart. Turning my ugly basment into a beautiful candlelit, India-style dinning & sleeping room for the week...Fantastic! So in a way, I took my husband on vactaion this week...For less than dinner at a restaurant costs.
(And the spiders didn't really bother us too much either...though i did have to kill one.)

Sow in Tears...Reap in Joy.
But still. Who would want a prophecy about sowing in tears. Let alone multipule prophecys and the word of the Lord to your heart. What a word.

June in conclusion

We finnally have got a contract on the house. Horrah! Also Joshua has finnally been accepted for a new job, working for the city. The other job he has had was definnately a blessing, but the schedual was not exactly fitting us. The city job has a more do-able schedual, is at least a dollar an hour more, and has great bennifits, access/ discounts for certain city things (such as a gym, swimming pool, golf course). So we are excited for that.
As far as I go everything is Good. I am still working at the coffee shop. I have been very worn out between J & P's wedding, getting sick, and picking up a few extra hours. this weekend my friend Katrina, who was supposted to be in our wedding, is in town. It is so good to see her. It is lovely to have friends who you can not see for 3 years, and still be so close when reunited. It gives me hope.
Over Jonny's wedding we got to see not only Joe and Micah, but also the whole nale family. did you know that the nales have moved, and now live about an hour 1/2 away from us. Yippi, I want to go see them. Anyhow, it was great to see all of them. on sunday Joe & micah came to the meeting. That was fun. Then we went to dinner, just the josh & i, and those 2. that night my parents, us and those 2 went to see fantastic four, get ice cream, and walk the "rainbow brige." Lovely.
June has had its fair share of difficulties. The easiest to identify, learning patience...as we waited on finding out about the city job and the house. Watching servants of God go through difficulties,waiting to see if they will chose the MostHigh-way, or to do it "my way." It is hard, because although we affect others, we can not make their choices for them. So we hang in the balance waiting to see what a test of time will reveal about the character of our fellow servants, and of ourselves. I feel encouraged though, because I see that although there are struggles, what my dear fellow servants want the most is to follow Christ.
Joshua and I remain so thankful esspecially for what Don & Carol and Tim & Carol have instilled into us. Marriage teaching like that is rare. Maybe in a few years we will start doing marriage counsiling... THANK YOU FOR WHAT YOU HAVE GIVEN US! the best wedding present we could ever ask for!
Finnally, I am re-vamping the whole "Master's commission" school that the Church has had. That has been taking up alot of my thought and my time. I feel like God has given me understanding for some things that needed to be re-worked. The school is all about equiping people to live wholeheartedly for God. I will let ya know how it goes.
God is faithful to speak, when we listen and when we seek him. He is faithful more than we even know. He is good beyond our imagenations. Oh that we would seek him more!
~m

Nose

This is me with my new nosering and new hair color. Because you are all dying to see them i am sure.
Lots is going on, almost to much to say, For sure too much to say right now.
We should know about the house soon though.

If you knew me

If you knew me, you would know, that I need to dance. It is far more a neccesity, than an delecacy. It goes beyond something that i love. When my feet are still and my hands not moving, my heart feels slightly chained. My spirit feels as though i forgot who I was, who i serve, and how he rescues me.

Lov-ely

In the last month i have wrote 5 songs, 3 of which i have wrote in the last 2 days. I am leading worship all week at Master's Commision. (CPMC). Yesterday was lovely. It is a thing of just wanting to be raw before him...thats where worship starts. I know there are always amazing things that God is wanting to do, It is usually just a matter of us slowing down enough and submitting our will to him. I want to be someone like david in the Bible, Proclaiming the greatness of God, without forgeting the tenderness and personalness of him.

We are looking at a house. It is amazing, and an amazing deal. Plus if we buy it we will have, 30k in homeowner equity, right off the bat, get experiance in fixing household stuff, be able to learn about being landlords...and our part is big enough to grow into!....we shall see what shall happen.

Worship Leader?

Well Today I am Leading worship (for people older than 11yrs) for the first time since I was in the simo homegroup. I acctually am leading with a song i wrote...yesterday. it is based of the "trust the Lord with all your Heart, dont lean on your understanding." It is like Josh always says, usually when i write a song its really good if its simple. I guess when i am the most desperate before the Lord that is when he is the most Powerful to me.
today also we are going in to make an offer on a house. It is a lovely duplex that we think maybe God has been saving for us. We shall see. It would be lovely though, because we would be able to rent the top out and help with payments....we shall see what the will of the Lord is. I love you!!!